Dear Lynn ( and dear neglected blog)
Not even a photo. I do so love this space though, even empty.
So here I am. My chin still sprouts ever more hair. I still have heart burn. I still have weight to lose.
I get so passionate about things I ought to do, and start off well. And then it all goes to hell in a handbasket. Or whatever that saying is.
All of my blogs are much neglected. The people I love to write about do not see a lot of me. Even my photography has been neglected other than for major occasions where I have been paid to do the work.
I guess I am living my life. It is a very quiet life which is driven mostly by the needs of the kids. J and I continue to work away at our marriage - in a very quiet kind of way. Which is OK with me after all the drama of the past few years. I was in such a hurry to get engaged/married and now I feel like we are slowly building a friendship with stronger foundations. I heard a local comedian say recently that we should only get married after being together 20 years - that we have it all the wrong way round. In our case we were only together four months before we got engaged and whilst it felt fantastic at the time I think we could have done with waiting to get married for 20 years.
And have I mentioned the cross roads thing. I hope I have a good 30 or more years left in me. Yet what shall I do with them. I know my own mother went into a clinical depression over questions like these. Whilst I know that won't happen to me I am left wondering - what to do, what to do.
Give back is the answer I keep coming up with.
love to you
Mary
At a crossroads here too as the 'baby making' comes to an end. I am dearly going to miss it. Viscerally. And what comes next for me? I really don't know. Wishing you well dear Mary and dear Lynn.
ReplyDeleteI think that's a lovely answer. And I am eager to see what shape that giving back will take.
ReplyDeleteChange is in the air at my house, but what that change will be is unclear. So yes, like you and dear Mrs. Duyvken, I am at a crossroads...Trying not to be too hurried and immpulsive, and to trust that all will fall into place.
Much love...
Or impulsive... {sigh}
ReplyDeleteIf we did do marriage the other way around as your friend suggests I'd hate to see what a hit the wedding industry would take. Or maybe I would like to see that. Hmmm.
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